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Thu, Jul. 29th, 2010 | 08:11 am  ⅊ Bstudio ♬ Heart song -WESTWORLD slavezombie


Writer's Block: Star-crossed
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This has disturbed me so much, I had to seek therapy. Finally I decided to try to get in touch. We spoke on the phone and I fell in love again with her sweet voice. I would liked to've met with her personally for coffee or lunch, but... instead I sent a letter describing the way I've felt, since highschool. Mistake? Absolutely. Would having met for coffee been a better solution for obtaining some closure? I'm convinced I only have a heart for 2 people in this life. One is my high school sweetheart, rather my prom date. Two is She of TV4.

Have you ever secretly loved someone you shouldn't have? If so, did you confess your feelings? Any regrets either way?


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from: anonymous
date: Fri, Jul. 30, 2010 07:55 pm (UTC)
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I fell in love with a paranoid schizophrenic who self-medicated during my high school's crystal meth epidemic. He got better during our relationship, went to rehab and therapy. Then he told me things he had done in his past, things he was remembering. It freaked me out, I left him. We didn't talk for four years. We only reconnected last week, but I could never fall in love with him after what he claimed to have done.

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from: slavezombie
date: Fri, Jul. 30, 2010 08:15 pm (UTC)
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I've heard what crystal meth does to people's teeth. It seems a person would not, could not, fall in love with a person who had been addicted to that stuff. Being paranoid schizophrenic wouldn't be helpful even if he tried to plead for sympathy. Was it something personal that he admitted to doing that completely turns you off to him, like cheating or slipping drugs into your food, or is it that he's just gross and disgusting?

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from: anonymous
date: Fri, Jul. 30, 2010 08:18 pm (UTC)
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His teeth are fine, but his body didn't take well to the abuse. He claims to have a load of health problems now.
He was always emotionally abusive to me as friends, while I was falling for him, but before we dated. So there was resentment there.
As for what he had done in his past to affect me where problems based on his mental illnesses, actions he couldn't really control. Cheating would have been small potatoes compared to the things he claimed. And the worse ones didn't involve me, they happened before I came along. I knew of all the horrible things he did to me (all psychological).

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from: slavezombie
date: Wed, Aug. 4, 2010 02:40 am (UTC)
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At first, I wasn't sure who it was that was replying. It wasn't until I caught a gander at the IP address in your other replies and compared them to this one. Sometimes I wonder... about celebrity life. Ana Garcia may have something to do with this train of though, but I'd just recently talked to my sister who is starting her own blog with blogspot and she had mentioned that she was going to visit my blog and comment on it. However, she said she didn't know how exactly. I told her it wasn't difficult but that I usually screen the replies so they don't appear instantaneously the moment a person posts them. Maybe I should change that and just weed out the entries I don't like.

Anyway, what I was saying about celebrity life is that nobody really knows who's who. I mean, I convinced that Ana Garcia is NOT somebody who grew up in Queens N.Y. but in fact somebody I knew growing up in Belmont. Unfortunately there's no way to know for sure because she doesn't answer her fan mail, and even if she does, would she admit to being somebody I know if she didn't even know that a letter from me was from somebody she used to know? I saw a funny English comedy on cable. I'll get you the title later as I don't remember what it was. I'll tag it in this blog as "boob tube"

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