This has disturbed me so much, I had to seek therapy. Finally I decided to try to get in touch. We spoke on the phone and I fell in love again with her sweet voice. I would liked to've met with her personally for coffee or lunch, but... instead I sent a letter describing the way I've felt, since highschool. Mistake? Absolutely. Would having met for coffee been a better solution for obtaining some closure? I'm convinced I only have a heart for 2 people in this life. One is my high school sweetheart, rather my prom date. Two is She of TV4.